River.. (Part 1)

I could feel the heat from your lips,
You invited me in with a whisper,
All throughout the blankets did you come to grips,
A silent beg of my words to enter.

I could hear the lust in your gasps,
And feel the eruptions in your breaths,
I told a story with my tongue,
While your passion flowed down my chest.

A torrent of Ecstasy,
A whirlpool of joy,
I drank in your lust,
And continued my story.

Your back arched and your thighs got closer,
And you pulled my words onto you,
An ocean when you reached your climax,
The exhaustion when you were through.

I stopped, just once, only for a breath,
Which for you, probably felt like forever,
Before I kissed your lips again, the sweetest taste,
And sent you back to heaven.

I would’ve drowned in you if I could,
And I continued to taste your pleasure,
You sent one last shudder through me,
Spent now beyond measure.

Untitled (WIP)

"…carefree, innocent, naive..
in the rays of the sun she danced.
Gracefully she twirled along the rays of the dawn,
Passing the beams through her fingers as she went..

The void became her canvas,
And the dawn was her creation,
She made the sunrise in her image
And the skies of her elation..

Her fingertips spread the clouds,
and her breaths became the winds,
Her smile illuminated the shadow,
Casting out the darkness within.

Her shoulders were the horizon,
And the sun danced along her skin,
Along her arms, down into her palms
Where it’s radiance shone dim..

When the curtains were called,
And the scarlets draped across the stage,
The aubergine and apricot backdrop,
Brought ephemerality to the day.

A midnight blue, almost black,
Contrasted the dawn before,
She danced along the waves,
And glided across the shore..

Hand in hand with the stars,
In tandem with the moon,
A bouquet of heavens lights,
Across the sky were strewn.

Moonlight was her track,
Gently dancing upon the streams.
She closed her eyes to see
The patterns in her dreams..”

To Elie

She was a rose..

A lovely, beautiful, flower with thorns on her stem.. And stood up tall, through the pain, in spite of them.. Given cloudy skies to block the shine.. Not enough sun.. Not enough time..

Her petals were exquisite.. But the soil was cruel.. The beads upon her leaves.. Each bead a jewel.. The reds became dull.. But never lost their luster.. And an amazing rose stood firm.. With all the strength it could muster..

Every graceful petal that fell.. The more the flower shone.. The more the flower was strong.. While it’s petals fell to stone..

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When the last petal stood high.. Overlooking the ground below.. It stood resolute in the pain.. It’s red against the snow.. It held on strong.. It held on long.. ‘til it gave everything it could.. That last strong petal gave everything left.. It left everything for good..

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We are born of moments.. We are given life through breaths..

We are cursed with the flesh of mortality.. Cursed with the burden of death..

But we are blessed..

With our curses comes love.. With the curse comes beauty..

While our flesh may disappear.. The blessings of our soul is there to be seen..

The door that was opened, is not the end of a journey.. 

Rather a resting area, to soothe our weary feet..

And when we are ready we will join you, and we will join your beautiful soul..

So please wait for us.. And please don’t cry.. When we join you, we’ll be whole..

Please take care of the part of us you took, because we have a part of you as well..

In our flesh you live on.. In memories and smiles.. Your soul safe in our shell..

I promise we’ll meet again..

I promise you won’t have to wait that much longer..

But we beg of you to wait..

Just a little.. Just until we are stronger.

To face the path that you took and to follow in the footsteps of someone so young and brave..

To walk along the journey you’re currently on.. That path that we are all so afraid..

We’ll reunite with you, and we will smile, and we will laugh, like no time has passed..

And those smiles will never end, the laughter will never fade..

And we’ll spend eternity at last..

..Together

I honestly didn’t think that I would cry as much as I did while writing this.. I never met this young woman.. This brave being that so many were so lucky to know.. But I know one thing.. 

SHE IS LOVED. SHE IS LOVE.

The Elements

I let myself be exposed to the elements you see..
And I found solace in the voice of the wind,
As it spoke between the trees..

I shuddered in the cold..
As it held me in it’s embrace,
Only to be comforted by the sun,
With rays like fingers, warmth upon my face..
And the snow provided a blanket,
To freeze my fears in place.

I stood in amazement while the rain danced around me,
And of soft patter of water upon the ground..
Clouds cried out in pain and anger,
And the valleys carried the shouts..

The earth quaked in trepidation..
Anxiety..
Loathing..
And spat the heated words of a pressured mind..
Only to cool along the banks of high..
Relaxed..
Calm..

A vicious wind, a quiet tempest, and swirl of rage and regret..
Left the thoughts of the leaves astray.. And the branches to forget..
The eyes were calm, but the skull was rough..
And the tears like a drain..
The light crept through the fog..
To bring the calm a-gain..

But now as I stand in the midst of the Gods, and in the fray of the calamity..
At the destruction laid around my feet, I see the man to be..
A resolute being in the face of the elements, in the turmoil deities create..
A man of candor, honor, and integrity.. I am a man to be great.

Freedom

Reflected in her eyes, gleaming, was the violent crashing of waves..\
And all around her in splinters lay, the place she had called home..\
Scattered all about, the bodies of strangers, her loved ones, and friends..\
And she alone could see them all, pulled down to the darkness below..

In the sky there was a break, the serene, clear, blue eye of God..\
And in her eyes there was relief, an acceptance of the end..

She was bound to her brothers.. And to her sisters at her left..\
Though their lives had escaped them before the plunge into the cold..

The chill of the water, the still of the air, the once so violent sea..\
Had now calmed the heart of just one girl, and finally given her peace..


And the eye of God closed to her..


Tears cascaded down her dark brown skin, forever lost in the ocean.. \
Her kin began to pull and tug, and she knew it was her time to go..\
For she was bound not by honor, nor by the blood coursing through her veins..\
But by the lies of men that promised a world, a world she did not know..

Enveloped by the wet embrace, into the darkness retreated.. \
She closed her eyes, and in the darkness found the calm she needed.. \
She now felt like never before, while being pulled beneath the waves.. \
She drew a breath, her last breath, now free, now no longer a slave..

The Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing.

Come on now, take my hand, kindly come with me.

Entrust your heart and all you are to my secrecy.

You hand me your heart, mind and soul, and I shall give you naught.

In exchange, I will leave you tattered, broken, tearful and distraught.

Don’t try to tear yourself away, for you know it is in vain.

You know you’d rather stay here, my dear, and simply endure this pain.

Because what you are losing to the world, I selfishly hold tight.

But your love and care mean nothing to me, I know that it’s alright.

For you see, I’ve got it down to a science, years of trial and error.

You’re merely another trial, child, a simple change in weather.

For when you are finally washed up, and those tears turn to vapor,

I will vanish like the wind, skedaddle, scram, see you later.

I wonder if you’ll ever see through this veil, I’ve so long wore.

Lest I treat you like the other hearts, I’ve worn down and tore.

It really matters not, for surely you already know.

When you decide you’re gone, it’s one down, billions to go.

How do you think I’m so good at it, this love game of mine?

I’ve distilled, perfected, and fine tuned this craft with time.

Of course I’ll come back to you, when all seems to be astray.

But the very next day, the same deal, I will push you away.

I’ve got you on a string, and dear God, it was so easy.

You are my toy, my little play thing, something to amuse me.

I’ll let you fall and hit that bump, and you’ll come right back. 

All the while, this string I’ve kept you on, remains dutifully intact.

Surely you hold on, for the knot you tied is so secure.

And surely I will corrupt thee, so angelic, so pure.

Because I am what you call a “bad boy,” and I am your type.

I am the boy you dream of, and call late at night.

I’m keeping you from someone who deserves you, with absolute ease.

I’ll show you what they would shower with, almost like a tease.

For the second you smile, and the second you grin.

I’ll merely yank that string, and you’ll rebound again.

It’s as simple as walking a dog, at least for me it is.

The second you saw me, and I saw you, Ding, it begins.

The cycle I’ve crafted, the designed I’ve mastered.

It’s not your heart or mind, but pants that I’m after.

Sure you won’t see it, for I’ll never let you know.

But it takes a fool to continue to watch my show.

You must be foolish, and you must know by now.

That I’m only letting you give me, what I allow.

I am the mastermind behind this plan, the perfect heist.

I will pull this off with eerie precision, a sniper poltergeist.

You’ll never see it coming! Or perhaps you will..

But does it even matter? It’s my life you’ll fulfill.

You know all I’m going to do it hurt you, at least thats the jest.

You’ll learn to enjoy the pain, and strive, emotional masochist.

Can you feel my grip on your heart? Can you feel my hands?

You know that you are mine now, give into my demands.

Turn your back on your friends, the one’s who been there.

The one’s who don’t want to see you hurt, the one’s that care.

You’re mine plain in simple, and mine and mine alone.

I’ll take your open heart, harden it, turn it to stone.

For when you are done with me, I’ll have you hooked.

The next “bad boy” that comes along, will read you like a book.

The “good guy” you deserve, sit’s back in pain.

Not because he is hurt, you’re just sullying your name.

For you see I am the wolf in sheep’s clothing, and you are prey.

Day in, and day out, in the pasture you shall stay.

For when I am hungry, I will once more hold out my hand.

For you are my dinner my dear, poor, defenseless, lamb.

I wrote this for all of the “good guys” like myself out there who see the world for what it is. This is what we know goes on in their minds, but what can we do to stop it? Words are not enough, and the barriers are too strong for us to break. We can only stand back and shake our heads, as all the angels on the planet succumb to the treacherous.

Inspiration

It’s lost. Fleeting. My inspiration is as the winds that come to comfort then leave.
The shade that cools the skin, before escaping from behind the tress.
It’s the feeling I get when I look to the left.
Because all that’s left, isn’t what’s right.

Coming and going. My mind is a boomerang, which flies through still’ air.
The wood rotting as in intervals, breaking apart at the paint and seams.
My words are as the wind, drifting through the sky, drifting without a care.
They are the forgetful moment’s in the morning, and darkness in my dreams.

It is the batteries dying in the middle of the road, when help is what you need.
It’s the satisfaction that vanishes instantly, when can’t believe what you’ve seen.
The moments that pass with no regrets, because there was nothing there to lose.
It’s the pen you’ve anxiously wanted to write with, but lost before you could use.

Pain after a cut.
The sweat after a run.
The dawn in the morning.
The night that hasn’t begun.

It’s what is there, but at the same time, as apparent as the air.
It’s the time you realize, that no one out there cares.
Just shrug and move on, because in the end you’re just going to die.
Holding on to inspiration is a waste of time, so there’s no need to try.

Tomorrow will come.
Whether I write these words or not.
I wanted to write something else.
But the subject I forgot.

Laugh at my indulgence.
Poke fun at my sorrow.
Just glance over my words.
Go on with your tomorrow.

And no, it’s not that I’m sad, nor does it matter to any of you.
I’m merely recollecting, on the things that I had thought.
The things that went through my mind, when neither of you knew.
When depression wracked through me, and left my mind distraught.

For That Which Could Have Been

If I could capture every star that fell, to weave a necklace of the galaxies..
I would make a nebula out of your tears, to show you the sight of your beauty..
The comets and moons would becomes the streaks of your pasts..
The cold ice of space would be the void into which your emptiness could disappear.
I would drain the light from the suns, so your smile would have no contenders.
And we would view the sky as an objective already reached.

If I could take the planets, and align them in a smile.
We could view the elipse from above, just so I could see you laugh.
But I would spare Pluto, it’s already been through enough.
Yet.. I would take the sphere of ice and make a barret.
A hairpiece that shines like no other in the universe.

I would rearrange the stars in the distance and form them into a poem.
And the poem would read:
“The stars hold not a candle to you, their beauty could not compare.
The planets revolve around you, because you are my core.
Time and eras, decades and eons, would all pass us in the air.
I would falter not in my love for you, neither after nor before.”
And forever would the asteroids light up the skies ablaze.
Into the rocks, we would etch our names.
Only to have the sand melt into glass.

The glass would immortalize our feelings for each other,
For the next lives that inhabit our worlds..
But until that day comes when someone will carve our bodies from the diamonds..
I’ll hold your hands, while we gaze off into the sunset.